At one stage of life every one of us, stop for a while,
look back into the buried, lost, forgotten, unforgotten memories. Sometimes we
just can’t come out of them, still we can’t really stop, and present makes us work
hard again and future calls in new dreamland…
This is what life is!
was
walking alone in the dawn
dawn…
end of
the darkest night
and
beginning
of the new day
the
moon was still there…
the
saffron of rising Sun was
just
arrived, very little, very faint
I was
witnessing this beautiful moment
with
tired eyes due to work
and
with fresh mind due to work
mind
was whispering some sweet memories
with
the heart
don’t
know how, when I started smiling…
I was
smiling…
memories…
end of
the past and
beginning
of the future
leaving
all that I loved in the past
to the
past
waiting
for – looking at that
not so
vivid but a sure future…
saffron
was arriving
stars
were melting…
in the
saffron, in the dark night
a new
coming light
I was
smiling..
memories,
still in the heart
mind
is still whispering
don’t
know how, when I started smiling…
I was
awake for the whole night
whole
the worst days of my life
which
were the darkest days and nights
I
didn’t sleep
I
didn’t stop
I
didn’t feel defeated
I was
only working
I
needed rest
but
the zest kept me working
mind
is still whispering
don’t
know how, when I started smiling…
memories
made me stop for a while
memories
made me cry for a while
something
lost, which was mine, only mine
something
remembered which was
always
mine, only mine..
tears
rolled, mind become mad
and
all of a sudden….
the
dawn came
a cruel moment of ‘present’
was
present in front of me
should
I get scared for a while..
ah..
the
memories were so sweet
the
future is becoming so vivid
why
should I worry, really why should I?
the
breeze coming from the saffron
was
soothing bringing the sweet smile
mind
is still whispering
don’t
know how, when I started smiling…
memories
and the thoughts
were not
ready to stop
sweet and
bitter…
if this
wouldn’t happen?
and
what if,
if that would really happen?
and am
I sad?
should
I cry?
or should
I feel satisfied…
and
now it’s the dawn
future
is becoming ‘present’
and
present is becoming ‘past’,
sweet
turned to cruel
when
cruel is vanishing with new sweet
oh! this mind is really
whispering
something sweet,
why am
I so smiling?
or
so……
blushing..
again
walking with heavenly fresh air touch
dreams
are touching me
like
the fresh breeze
dreams
are now present telling
the story
of some new dreams
the crazy
thoughts which ‘I’ can’t express
mind whispers
and become poems
why am
I smiling…
writing
a new poem…
why won’t
I smile?
mind games
were going on,
chatting,
whispering, sometimes
storming….
and
all of
as sudden
the Golden
rays of Golden Sun
touched
my eyes
so clearly
that the
Golden
future really entered my puzzled, wet eyes
birds are
flying with the work
for the
work
without any mind games
without any mind games
and
my work
– my dreams are calling me once again
……
but,
don’t know, why I smiled today
don’t know, why I smiled today
Golden
rays the blessings of Gurudeva
The Gurukripa,
touched
the life
and
made me
smile…
This is how my life is related with the night –dawn-morning,
hardships – struggle- blessings of The Gurudeva and the victory!
The beauty of the same poem, expressed in the haiku New Life Sun.
The beauty of the same poem, expressed in the haiku New Life Sun.
Beautifully written.I loved your introduction to the poem too.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Kajalji.
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